MEDITATION: Utter Astonishment

I realized this morning that the only appropriate attitude for me these days is utter and constant astonishment. I should go through my days in a stupor of amazement. I should feel like I’m floating instead of walking. People should be concerned about me, saying things like, “I’m worried about Ham. He has this beatific smile on his face, as though he’s in heaven every moment.” There’s a simple reason for this: I am living (I can’t escape it) in a totally astonishing universe, one in which there can be no struggle or conflict, ever, because there is never any two-ness, only one-ness. This statement contains more wonder than I can ever really comprehend. A universe without conflict. A universe that is totally and constantly harmonious. A universe that’s always as peaceful as the mildest spring breeze. This is what I am a part of. This is where I live, day in and day out, moment after moment. It’s just as if I am the heir of a kingdom of incalculable riches – a man who has absolutely no worries in life, no fears, no insecurities, because he always has everything he needs. Life is totally present, totally mental, and totally one – and therefore totally harmonious. This is why I should be utterly astonished from morning to midnight.